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I need help desperately :,( - Duzeex - 02-29-2016

Being born Trans is a bored I bear.
You wanna interact on normal grounds with people but its impossible to, I never was into any sport growing up. cause i didn't wanna be put with the girls, didn't get why I cant play ball with the boys ma friends(when I could play just good or beta than some), so I never joined any sport activities, cause if it was running? you had to run with girl and same goes for everything. so i never got to know how far i Might have gone with sports as a career.
I don't know but I was aware I wasn't a girl at an early age, so there wasn't a time I tired to fit in ( technically fitting in was impossible) it was a case of: I felt different, thought i was mentally sick, researched found out, I only found out at age 12, and since Then Life has been the same, actually there wasn't much of a diff' between b4 or after I found out ( though I never came out FOR VERY GOOD REASONS- like getting thrown into a mental home or killed).
my kind of person doesn't like to be the center of attention, i literally hide, don't go out unless necessary, don't club nor party, and now it's all habits, I don't know if right now I just enjoy it all (don't know if that a good thing, I don't even know how to call people, well that's aside, I don't know If this' called living? Though am In school and that's one of the reason am still in my country presently. ma social Life isn't anything to envy.
I don't even Know what field of sport I would have taken up as a Career?
Never had the chance to Join any. when I think about All this? I wish i came as normal as any guy would. men does it hurt!

I don't have access to a gender therapist ( though I need one), non exist in my country ( tried to talk to a doctor and was referred to a mental home.) And to get an online therapist is expensive, am still working on living my country. Well the soon the beta, before I disappear... I need support cause I don't have a job, and still a student( managed to finish paying my school fee, it was quite much), and working on how to get out of my country is expensive, and I still have to pay for top surgery, and Naira has dropped making it hard (the curreny in my country: Nigeria is Naira).

I don't really know how to ask, its not a thing of pride. But I don't how to. Crossing my fingers and praying for the very best.


RE: I need help desperately :,( - Joshua - 03-03-2016

Tough situation, absolutely! I think it's good that you are continuing with school because that can help provide you with a way out of some of these challenges you are facing.

Where are you thinking of going for Top Surgery? South Africa?


RE: I need help desperately :,( - Duzeex - 03-04-2016

Anywhere I can get the best results, no scars

I need a little push


RE: I need help desperately :,( - Joshua - 03-05-2016

No scars is tough unless you have a very small chest.

Dr. Kevin Adams is the go-to surgeon in Cape Town, performing all GRS surgeries. He's associated with the gender clinic at the Groote Schuur Hospital. Spain might be another option, as well as Serbia or Thailand.


RE: I need help desperately :,( - Duzeex - 03-11-2016

I have seen very impressive results even for guys on the big side


RE: I need help desperately :,( - Joshua - 03-15-2016

Absolutely, and scars do fade! (Tattoos can also obscure scars.)


RE: I need help desperately :,( - Paul11 - 12-03-2020

Hell, I can't read this without a heartache. My best friend had a similar situation. He was always shy and him always despised for it. I didn't care about it, all I cared about was that he was a very good friend and would always help. I always helped him, too. He decided to have an operation and I always went everywhere with him and supported him. The doctor said that he will need Plant Therapy and after 1-2 months he will have surgery. After a while, he still had surgery and everything went well. I think I was more happy about it than he was, because I was very worried about him. I have never seen him so happy and free, I am very happy that everything is fine with him now. I hope you're all right now, too, and you've solved this problem.